Overwhelmed is a word I use often at the moment.
I am trying to make small changes within myself to be a more positive and happy person. I am failing.
I miss my family so much. My Mum is in Mackay, my Dad is in Townsville and my Brother is... I don't actually know where he is. I miss the days we were all together and whole; happy, laughing, bickering, fighting, talking and just being. Although we haven't all been together since my wedding (over 2 years ago), it honestly feels like it was actually further in the past because we didn't really get to spend time together as a family on that day.
Christmas 2007 is the last time we actually spent time together with us all being happy. That's almost 5 years ago now. My family is broken :(
I've been trying to find little, creative things to keep me busy while I am looking for a job. I am taking photos with my phone and picked up my cross stitch that I forgot about a couple of years ago. My house is generally clean and tidy, though I really need to sort out the cupboards and storage spaces.
Healthy eating and exercise is slow going. If I could just be as committed to it as so many others are, I think I would be closer to my goal. Unfortunately, my get up and go got up and went without me.
There's no real reason for me to write. I just felt like getting it out there.
Peace out,
Bee x
